It's All Over But the Crying

Well, it's done. The ties have been untied and they have been left to themselves.
I just hate it. It is a sad thing to watch half of your family implode. I can't even tell you how it feels to see both sides. I can't tell you because I don't even know yet. Just sadness. A deep flowing sadness.
I am more than the sum of my parts. I know this. I know this every time I look at my child.
The siblings I can see but not the mother-child betrayal. Maybe I'm just naive. No, I know I'm just naive. How can a woman be so bitter and shriveled and evil to do what my grandmother has done?
I've always heard from people (her mainly) that she is mentally ill. She's sick. Please, she's just mean. A mean old bitch. And the one she's left with is just like her. Sounds like hell on earth to me.

Behaving Badly

So it's finally happened. The whole damned family has imploded. I knew it would happen. As a little kid I somehow sensed we were walking a tenuous string but that doesn't make it any easier.

What do I tell my kid when he starts asking about his family? This sucks. We suck. My kids the only one who doesn't' suck and I'm terrified of ruining him. It runs in the family.

More later,

E